well my first thought is that according to main calendar and some other people 1012 is the end of human life as we know it. i do not know or think anything of this other than after all these centuries something better happen; if that means i have to go in the backyard and low up a trashcan.
on another note; what have i thought of this year? personally? its been a year, lots of changes, but i wouldn't change anything. even if i could there would be too many factors to play into it that i would not want to try (change of time and space and all....)
as a whole? always issues have arisen that had been there the whole time, only to be covered up and avoided. that goes for my personal life as well as that of humanity.
what do i expect of 2010?
nothing. take it as it comes and go with the flow. i find planning anything or expecting anything from anyone but myself is a ruse. so i will live via myself as long as i can, and ask for help when desperate. only then do the people who seem to truly care come out of the woodwork.
so then. personally i hope to find a resolution to my current living situation. i hope to find more dates if the one i have now does not pan out; as i feel it has. that is ok, it's nice to know that there are people out there for me, and that i learned more about human emotion. for example: with deep lust, the need to say 'i love you' builds up to the point of almost bursting. although, i can at least know that it is indeed lust and not love, if it ever does turn to love i will be happy. for it truly is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.
now, personal highlights of this year: SS came through, got two pet rats, read a lot of wonderful books, finished two journals, spent a lot of quality time with parents, and found lust. Star Trek is my new saving grace- again. that is to say, my love was reignited.
worldly highlights? a whole lot of nothing. oh btw, Michael's dead, get over it. he was not a great person in life, his family all hated each other and his music and money was his only saving grace... which killed him. and Paul can shove his money up his ass (which he does i bet). Hmm politics took the turn i said it would, its like saying the stock market is unpredictable... if i had the money i would play it.
hmmm... what else... oh yeah new years resolutions: buy and play ST online till i drop. get a larger tank for my rats. find internal and external peace that isn't harmful. make my stillsuit for the Dune release.
happy-un-happy new years/eve.
isnt next 'singles awareness day?' (aka Valentine's Day)