its been months since i finished a book, but it feels good.

my father recommended this book: The Lost Light An Interpretation of Ancient Scriptures by Alvin Boyd Kuhn

i recommend this book only for those with an open mind. if you are steadfast and squeamish about entirely new outlooks on something then stay away, this will only upset you.

as much as i would like the entire world to read this, for the better good not all should.

the summary of this is exactly the tittle: An Interpretation of Ancient Scriptures.

it was nice to read that, though i am young, people have been seeing the similarities in most religions that i have started to see.

the similarities are in the not so direct translation and utter historical truth. that most religious scriptures are taken as historical fact are instantly overlooked for what they truly mean. that they are all compact symbolism in trying to convey something that seems almost impossible to describe.

the largest of this was that the soul is a being that was vanquished from it's heavens and must live life over and over in a mortal body to learn a heavenly respect again.

this is what i meant by keeping an open mind. i think some of you just started writing me flaming hate comments.

this is not a direct belief of mine just because i wrote it and read the book.

i have no personal proof of this other than what Mr. Kuhn has stated with his own quoted scriptured thesis.

i have come to the common conclusion, as i have in more than most of the other scriptures i have read, that there is a common peace. in which, you do what you can when you can in the best way you can and deal with the after when that comes. no real need to destroy what love an hope you have for this life.

in that i mean: when you bog yourself down with things to make you ' pure' you loose the whole idea. you can't stop to smell the roses if you are too worried they will cause you sin. that goes for more than one religious staple i have run across.

i can see why my father likes this book as much as he does, it sums up a lot of what both of us have read to try and find our own answers. it also showed me more about how my father thinks, and i can see now more of where he is coming from.

once again i wish the world could read this book, but it is not for all, and should not be read by all.

i watched the preview months ago and cried like a baby. so i thought that i would be sobbing through most of this movie or have a breakdown at least at the end.

this did not happen though like my friend i did get misty eyed.

we both also agreed that for a book with about ten lines, to make a move that fit so well was great.

the book was really about nothing in general and so was the movie.

underlying angst for a kid who wants more attention than he can get but other than that- it was like Zorba the Greek. nothing really substantial happens.

the cinematography was so very beautiful- shaky cam, but understandable why.

i loved the use of puppets and cg so well. it was nice.

this was not a bad movie but not great. it was rather scary at some points for kids. not everything can be a mind FFFF though so....

it was good.

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Halloween was ok.

i got drunk- as drunk as i was allowed. which was more than half the bottle of chocolate vodka i brought.

i was female dead spock.

no one threw up the Vulcan Salute or said 'live long and prosper' so i could say ' peace and long life' so i was greatly disappointed...

my xbf was Kirk so that was fun.

i took a lot of time on that costume damnit. fing ppl.

s'ok i made friends with Rasputin so we bro-fisted all night and drank. Rasputin: Bringing Sexy Back yo

i did get told to dress up again for the Christmas parade here in a few weeks for the local comic book shop. i think ill just wear my 2009 blue-shirt... go as a guy. or something.

oh yeah worst part? i made my bf cry when we broke up last night. i take full blame for the whole four months of crap- but i have full faith that he will find a girl who loves him as much her and wants a family. i just cannot provide to him what he is looking for- as much as he cares about me.

so i feel like a dick, but at least now i can try to get some things together that had been bothering me...

first to watch was Ponyo:

the new Miyazaki film was so very cute! just like all his other films. there did seem to be more of a plot than i noticed in the other ones

and a solid ending, which shocked me.

basic plot: little mermaid.

second was Inglorious Bastards:

i am not a fan of shoot'm up and violent humor. i can see where it would be entertaining. but i feel like my life is now down two and a half hours.

i dont care that what-his-name was the director. that doesn't mean i like the content. sorry.

i thought it was grotesquely violent and uncalled for. if i want to watch something like that ill watch Flags of Our Fathers. cuz then i dont feel ill when people laugh... cuz no one does.

now don't get upset people: my roommate loves those kinds of movies, so i let her watch her things she lets me watch my so-very-very boring things.

plot: be Jewish American and violently bash and kill Nazis.

third was an older film The Secritary:

OH MY GOODNESS

this is a kink movie. trying to explain to some people why others are into 'kinks' and honestly... it made me feel so much better about some of the things that i think about.

i have gotten very upset at an old acquaintance of mine who was angry at the idea of sadism and masochism. if you dont like it. great- you dont like it. doesnt mean that someone who does is retarded for partaking in it.

same thing with music. i dont have to explain to you why i like techno and you dont. i am not going to force you to like it. i know most people dont, so ill go about my day and not force it down your throat.

same thing with sexual tendencies- whatever they may be.

i am who i am and if you dont like that great. i wasnt asking to do them with you. also means that if you dont want to know me anymore; i could care less, im not going to change myself so i can be friends with everyone.

ignor the more angered ranting here. i blame YOU mother-nature... i blame YOU...

when i first saw this preview in theaters i was so excited, i wanted to see it so very bad.

when it came out i was sad by the response i got from people who had seen it- but i guess it really was the only to truly describe it- "lots of guns and explosion!"

i generally am not a fan of shoot'm'ups so i just opted to stay away.

why i wanted to see it though was it looked so realistic as to how humanity would genuinely handle something like a non-hostile alien invasion.

my roommate had started hearing things about it on a site we frequent and wanted to know what was up with it.

so we saw it.

and it's brilliant.

both of us cannot wait for the next one- which they better make or there will be some very upset fans.

the effects in this were so very very good! and the way it was filmed was perfect as far as making the person feel that they were getting what may be considered a non-biased view from the news and public; then when things become known letting you form your own views on how the situation is going.

as some on here know i am not our biggest fan- this film to me was a testament to that, and i still do not like the main character... even after everything; which like i said is all a matter of perspective.

there are some things that got me that i had to stop and think about, only realizing that just like humans have different cultures- aliens are something totally different.

just as i try to realize that Sarek (Spocks father) is a Vulcan and not human, so naturally the reactions we would have to situations would not be the same to him, not because he's a butthead, just because they are not there.

this i am also trying to put into play in my day-to-day life.

the more i take a distant observation of my behaviors and thoughts, then openly compare them to others in a social manner do i see that i am a cultural oddity in some respect. coming to grips with that has now become a matter of how i want to try and represent myself.

the more i think of these things does it put the world and all that it encompasses into a bit clearer perspective.